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  <title>"Yea these niggaz like me haters want to fight me....</title>
  <subtitle>....Yea these niggaz mad cuz I came up over night B"</subtitle>
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  <updated>2008-03-12T02:00:28Z</updated>
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    <title>SELLING TONS OF MERCH! FOR CHEAP!!!!!</title>
    <published>2008-03-12T02:00:28Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-12T02:00:28Z</updated>
    <content type="html">all shirts $5 +shipping&lt;br /&gt;all shorts $10 +shipping&lt;br /&gt;all longsleeves-$8 +shipping&lt;br /&gt;all hoodies-$15 +shipping&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;shirts&lt;br /&gt;Looking forward grey and black baseball tee- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Set Your Goals- Yellow football chaos- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Sworn Enemy- Black shirt- NY logo- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Bane- limited edition black Syrentha Savio Endowment Benefit- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Betrayed- White sing along- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Bloody Sunday- Virginia Beach hxc black- Small&lt;br /&gt;Remembering Never-Summer 2006 Florida- light blue- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Still here clothing- sXe baseball tee- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Wintch Mob- Black Ghetto Blaster Thug- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Bishop- Batman Shirt Royal Blue- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Most Precious Blood- Passion over Fashion black- small&lt;br /&gt;Neon Hookers- Hooters Resteraunt Design black- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Neon Hookers- Im nothing but a waste- Navy blue- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Scare tactic- Skeleton Warrior- grey- Medium&lt;br /&gt;If youre going to kill yourself sXe shirt- Black- Small&lt;br /&gt;No Excuses- We hate you but we'll date you- Purple- Medium&lt;br /&gt;No Excuses- We hate you but we'll date you- Forest Green- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Blood Brothers- Black- American Apparel- Large&lt;br /&gt;Between the Buried and Me- Black- Small&lt;br /&gt;Hands up Sxe- Royal Blue- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Mormin Kane-Group Poop-Medium&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;longsleeves&lt;br /&gt;Barriers Now Bridges- Singalong-Grey- Large&lt;br /&gt;Seventh Star- Fear- Black- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Neon Hookers- Red Dino cooking people- Medium&lt;br /&gt;Ten 33- Gators colors- It Never Dies sing along- medium&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;shorts- Know the Score- black with baby blue- medium&lt;br /&gt;Youth Attack-Navy Blue- Polar Bear- Large&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;hoodies&lt;br /&gt;Wintch Mob- One Big party Diamond design black- Medium pullover&lt;br /&gt;Suffocate Faster- Grey Grand Reaper- Medium pullover&lt;br /&gt;Sense Fail- Medium black zip up</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:117257</id>
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    <title>Last updated 34 weeks ago</title>
    <published>2007-07-25T06:52:32Z</published>
    <updated>2007-07-25T06:52:32Z</updated>
    <content type="html">hahah what do i still have this thing?</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:117088</id>
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    <title>i need some advice..</title>
    <published>2006-11-26T08:44:38Z</published>
    <updated>2006-11-26T21:54:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">ADAM LOVES ANAL!&lt;br /&gt;WWW.MYSPACE.COM/ADAMLIKE&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;GAY GUYS, HOLLER @ HIM</content>
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    <title>NO NFG FOR ME</title>
    <published>2006-11-05T05:47:10Z</published>
    <updated>2006-11-05T05:47:10Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Well i procrastinated and didnt get my NFG/Cartel ticket and @ 1st i was really bummed but i chilled with Adam, Ash, and Heather. we watched Dont Be A Menace to south central..... and it was fun. me and adam are playing NBA Live and we downloaded the Kevin Federline cd cuz we saw it @ Target and thought itd be funny and...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;IT IS THE WORST CD OF ALL TIME! KEVIN FEDERLINE IS HORRIBLE. HAHAHAHA &lt;br /&gt;COMEDY CD OF THE YEAR!</content>
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    <title>TOMORROW!</title>
    <published>2006-10-21T21:35:14Z</published>
    <updated>2006-10-21T21:35:14Z</updated>
    <content type="html">BORKENSOUND BLVD @ROXANNES!!!!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GO!</content>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-10-09T06:26:00</title>
    <published>2006-10-09T06:26:34Z</published>
    <updated>2006-10-09T06:26:34Z</updated>
    <content type="html">The yankees fired Joe Torre and that pisses me off. big mistake</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:116118</id>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-10-07T03:38:00</title>
    <published>2006-10-07T07:39:20Z</published>
    <updated>2006-10-07T07:39:20Z</updated>
    <content type="html">employee of the month was really funny</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:115893</id>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-10-02T17:31:00</title>
    <published>2006-10-02T17:31:39Z</published>
    <updated>2006-10-02T17:31:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">My cell phone has been turned back on finally!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;561 818 1803</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:115537</id>
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    <title>Its all meaningless under the sun</title>
    <published>2006-10-02T05:55:57Z</published>
    <updated>2006-10-02T05:55:57Z</updated>
    <content type="html">had alot of fun with friends this weekend.&lt;br /&gt;saw alot of people i havent seen in awhile&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;learned that im only human and will mess up @ times but am so gracious for Gods mercy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love my friends&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love my Lord&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love growing in my faith, even if i learn the hard way</content>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-09-29T12:55:00</title>
    <published>2006-09-29T16:56:31Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-29T16:56:31Z</updated>
    <content type="html">2 things i need BAD right now&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;a good job&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;people who wanna get a place anywhere in between ft. lauderdale and west palm beach</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:115080</id>
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    <title>PHONY RAPPERS</title>
    <published>2006-09-26T05:51:46Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-26T05:51:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">TODAY!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;+SET YOUR GOALS ACOUSTIC SET&lt;br /&gt;+SEEING GOOD FRIENDS&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;++++A TRIBE CALLED QUEST, RHYMEFEST, CONSEQUENCE, AND THE PROCUSSIONS!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;----Getting home @ 1:00 am and my aunt whos usually up till 2, complaining saying i have no respect, and need to find another place to stay if i cant be home early. Even though only reason i was staying with her is cuz she told me to when she heard i wanted to stay in South Florida. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So tomorrow consists of me looking for a job and a new place to live. Ahhh the joys of "family." but it was an amazing night so i aint gonna let her ruin it, just give it to God and hope for the best. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;tomorrow night should be fun as well. so ima just.....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kick, Push</content>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-09-23T11:50:00</title>
    <published>2006-09-23T15:54:38Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-23T15:54:38Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Last night went to Paramore, Cute is What We Aim For, Hit the Lights, and In the Providence. It was sold out and they were being stupid bout everything but my old PBA admissions counselor walked by and happened to know Paramores tour manager, so he got us in which was cool. Miss in this providence and most of hit the lights. Saw cute is what we aim for and paramore, the whole show was acoustic. at 1st i was pissed but it was really cool and not every1 gets a chance to see paramore acoustic. they were amazing and Cute is what we aim for was good too. &lt;br /&gt;chilled with alot of awesome people before, @, and after the show. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;TODAY!!!!!!!  PLEASE GO!!!!!! SUPPORT MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;leger&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;September, 23 2006 at The Warehouse &lt;br /&gt;415 SW 10th Terrace, Hallandale, FL 33009&lt;br /&gt;Cost: $5.00</content>
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    <title>We think, we bust, we live, thats us</title>
    <published>2006-09-19T00:40:30Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-19T00:40:30Z</updated>
    <content type="html">im coming to south florida soon. this week!&lt;br /&gt;Leger showcase Sat. &lt;br /&gt;Brokensound Blvd photoshoot Sunday&lt;br /&gt;Working on some solo material&lt;br /&gt;Brokensound show in Oct! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Steel Bars by Andy Gullahorn&lt;br /&gt;"So this is how it feels at the rock bottom of despair&lt;br /&gt;When the house I built comes crashing down&lt;br /&gt;And this is how it feels when i knoew the man that i am&lt;br /&gt;is not the man that i am when no ones around....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;....This is how it feels to come alive again&lt;br /&gt;and start fighting back to gain control&lt;br /&gt;and this is how it feels to let freedom in&lt;br /&gt;and break that chains that enslave my soul"</content>
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    <title>2 events you should be @</title>
    <published>2006-09-16T03:32:22Z</published>
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    <content type="html">LEGER AND OTHERS &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;September, 23 2006 at The Warehouse&lt;br /&gt;415 SW 10th Terrace, Hallandale, FL 33009&lt;br /&gt;Cost: $5.00&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Space is limited, arrive early. Don't miss this special performance by Léger with guests: We Are the Empty, and Price.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt; October, 22 2006 at Roxanne's&lt;br /&gt;3148 ne 12 ave, Oakland Park, FL 33334&lt;br /&gt;Cost: $8&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;BROKENSOUND BLVD&lt;br /&gt;THE SECONDHAND OUTFIT&lt;br /&gt;PROTOMAN&lt;br /&gt;WORD PERFECT&lt;br /&gt;CYNIC &amp; LEX ONE&lt;br /&gt;18+</content>
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    <title>update for those who stilln read</title>
    <published>2006-09-14T19:01:13Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-14T19:01:13Z</updated>
    <content type="html">well life has been challenging but good. my family moved and since the band break up wasnt expected ive been in a lil rut. im currently staying with some friends in orlando. money is tight and i have no license so i cant go ne where, but its all good. itll all work out. God has really been doing a work in me and its awesome.Im reading the Bible daily and reading this book, Wild @ Heart. If you are a christian male, this book is a must read. Im applying for jobs and hopefully something good comes out of it. I miss alot of my friends, esp. from PBA and SOuth Florida. Hopefully ill be back soon. &lt;br /&gt;Brokensound blvd is making moves, Oct 22nd we have our first south florida show @ roxannes in Oakland Park, so please take off work now or whatever, please be there&lt;br /&gt;Tour has me all hXc music drained so ive been jamming to alot of indy and singer/songwriter jams. its good times. anyway. be easy</content>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-09-12T21:20:00</title>
    <published>2006-09-13T01:19:28Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-13T01:19:28Z</updated>
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    <title>ATTN CROCODILE HUNTER</title>
    <published>2006-09-04T05:17:39Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-04T05:17:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">REST IN PEACE&lt;br /&gt;U HAD SOME BIG BALLS!</content>
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    <title>bored in the mall with ian and jason. good times</title>
    <published>2006-09-04T02:37:39Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-04T02:37:39Z</updated>
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    <title>"lookin for love in all the wrong places"</title>
    <published>2006-09-03T08:18:39Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-03T08:18:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Well, its 4am and i cant sleep. I just finished watching this movie called The Believer. Good flick. However, it was more then just a movie to me. The movie was all about this kid who lives a lifestyle totally contradicting what he really believes and in the end comes to terms with it. well, im coming to terms now that Ive been doing the same. Ive been living a life where I live and act in ways that i dont see as right. However, ive allowed myself to indulge in activities to try and fill the gaps that i feel are missing in my life. I am not one to live with regrets because i feel each part of life is a lesson to be learned, and im learning it. I want to live a life that others can look at, examine and match what i say i believe with the lifestyle i live daily. I will always fall short, but i want to strive to be the man God has called me to be. I'm done living for me. ive wrestled with God, been angry and hateful to Him, and tried to deny Him, but when i lay my head to rest, i cant help but know He is there waiting with open arms. Well the wait is over. Im running back into His loving arms because though ive neglected Him, He has never left me nor forsaken me. Living for me has tainted my reputation, tore apart my band, tore apart my friendships, and in the end left me empty. I do not like who ive become. I also saw a walk to remember today and its like she said, "Hes like the wind. You cant see Him, but you can feel Him." I feel Him. Ive tried to walk away, ive doubted, ive wrestled, and ive hated, but in the end, i still love and still thirst for Him. Im broken and ready to be put back together. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Dear Friend, Once again I have betrayed thee&lt;br /&gt;Neglecting what you ask of my life, even though you made me&lt;br /&gt;maybe im too selfish, maybe youre too selfless&lt;br /&gt;maybe your too powerful, maybe im too helpless"&lt;br /&gt;-Me&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Heres a song that captures how i feel&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Pigeon John Sealed Fate Lyrics&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Uh, I've only lived life grippin' tight on a thin rope&lt;br /&gt;Went from girl-to-girlfriend in order to cope&lt;br /&gt;But it, didn't fill the need&lt;br /&gt;Cause I'm still in need&lt;br /&gt;And I'm filled with greed to proceed, indeed&lt;br /&gt;But if I don't understand where I've been, uh (I've been)&lt;br /&gt;I'mma take the very same road to sin, uh (Same road to sin)&lt;br /&gt;Same girl, different fate is worth a grin, uh (It's worth a grin)&lt;br /&gt;A standstill 'til I learn how to win&lt;br /&gt;So I'm switching up the whole scene&lt;br /&gt;Castin' away all the old thoughts and old things&lt;br /&gt;And let it shine bright&lt;br /&gt;A city on the hill, beamin', and it feels right&lt;br /&gt;And let the river flow, gleamin' even when it's light&lt;br /&gt;And got my goons 24/7 ready to fight&lt;br /&gt;And gather all my fruits, only when it's ripe&lt;br /&gt;Cause serious, it's been takin' my whole life&lt;br /&gt;And I've been dicing it to pieces with my very own knife like&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(I know why)&lt;br /&gt;I keep seeing my friends lose it&lt;br /&gt;"Life or death, the choice is yours, choose it"&lt;br /&gt;Is what I've been hearing ever since the 9th grade&lt;br /&gt;But the light was kinda hot, so I kicked it in the shade&lt;br /&gt;And I drunk some lemonade, while the other kids played&lt;br /&gt;And I slowly recognized all the progress they made&lt;br /&gt;Then I looked to myself and I realized I was pale&lt;br /&gt;At the end of the class, they passed and I failed (and I)&lt;br /&gt;Sometimes I feel I'm still there&lt;br /&gt;Underneath the same tree trap, thinking I'm free and&lt;br /&gt;Every morning I wake up to handcuffs&lt;br /&gt;But it's cool in the shade and I don't wanna wake up&lt;br /&gt;And I know if I stop out in the light I'll awake&lt;br /&gt;And see things differently, and have to shape&lt;br /&gt;All the dross and the alloy off&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Which will make me, shape me, into exactly what God made me to be!&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I step out, let out a shout, and do time&lt;br /&gt;But my rhyme only reflects me and defines&lt;br /&gt;Where I'm at so I only incline and rewind&lt;br /&gt;To my past to notice my mistakes and recline&lt;br /&gt;And things stand up, now we get it right&lt;br /&gt;Cause my life is but a quick blink in a short night&lt;br /&gt;But I'm chillin' now (chillin' now)&lt;br /&gt;Not gonna wonder how (wonder how)&lt;br /&gt;My life is gonna change&lt;br /&gt;Cause I'll just let it re-arrange like this!</content>
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    <title>2_steponurgrave @ 2006-08-25T20:26:00</title>
    <published>2006-08-26T00:26:20Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-26T00:26:20Z</updated>
    <content type="html">watching MTV Cribs makes me jealous! i wanna make it big&lt;br /&gt;Joey Fatones crib and cars made me so bitter. ugh. ima start a boy band, i wont be in it cuz im not, tall, skinny, and a heart throbe but ima start one, get them famous and me rich!</content>
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    <title>my weekend</title>
    <published>2006-08-25T19:54:55Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-25T19:54:55Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Backbooth&lt;br /&gt;37 W.Pine St&lt;br /&gt;orlando,Fl&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sat: Aug 26th&lt;br /&gt;Doors Noon&lt;br /&gt;1st band: 12:20&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;$13 before 4pm / $16 after&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That Was Then&lt;br /&gt;Hollywood Handgrenade&lt;br /&gt;The Tradition&lt;br /&gt;Dead Weight&lt;br /&gt;Fight Like Hell&lt;br /&gt;Fallen From The Sky&lt;br /&gt;Colin of Arabia&lt;br /&gt;On A Warpath&lt;br /&gt;Cast Aside&lt;br /&gt;BraceWar&lt;br /&gt;Down To Nothing&lt;br /&gt;Dance Floor Justice&lt;br /&gt;Kill Your Idols&lt;br /&gt;All Hell Breaks Loose&lt;br /&gt;Seventh Star&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sun: Aug 27th&lt;br /&gt;Doors: noon&lt;br /&gt;1st band: 12:45&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;$13 before 3pm / $16 after&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Attitude&lt;br /&gt;Neon Hookers&lt;br /&gt;Risky Business&lt;br /&gt;Kill Your Idols&lt;br /&gt;Shoot To Kill&lt;br /&gt;Know The Score&lt;br /&gt;Hammer Bros.&lt;br /&gt;PaleHorse&lt;br /&gt;Anchors Away&lt;br /&gt;Good Clean Fun&lt;br /&gt;Life Long Tragedy&lt;br /&gt;Dead Hearts&lt;br /&gt;Nervous Breakdown&lt;br /&gt;Crime In Stereo&lt;br /&gt;Make or Break&lt;br /&gt;Righteous Jams</content>
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    <title>please come!</title>
    <published>2006-08-22T04:40:03Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-24T18:20:32Z</updated>
    <content type="html">brokensound show CANCELLED!</content>
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    <title>to sum it all up</title>
    <published>2006-08-16T04:29:47Z</published>
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    <content type="html">i hate my life</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:2_steponurgrave:111624</id>
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    <title>PLEASE COME</title>
    <published>2006-08-11T05:41:55Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-11T05:41:55Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v185/thenameswonder/marsillfrontandback.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;BROKENSOUND BLVD WITH MARS ILL, ONE OF MY FAV. HIP HOP GROUPS</content>
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    <title>update</title>
    <published>2006-08-03T20:10:02Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-03T20:10:02Z</updated>
    <content type="html">well im still on tour. this is the bands last tour, we are parting ways. it was fun while it lasted but im ready to be home. &lt;br /&gt;dont know where home is right now since my family is all moving to North Carolina so im trying to figure it out. im 99% poisitive it wont be florida though. so ill be home august 14th if anyone wants to chill before i relocate. im probably going to NC for a little bit to spend time with my family since its been awhile, stay with my bro and take time to be with my nephew. &lt;br /&gt;On another note, the brokensound album is almost done, i think. and from what ive heard its awesome. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;lifes whatever. nothing special, but im getting by.&lt;br /&gt;hope all is well for u all</content>
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